Ever since I found out that i needed an operation and now a blood transfusion.. i am more worried than mad with the man.  He is so nonchalant about everything.  I worried about my kid.. if i am not around.  Even for my surgery that few days.. i wonder what is going to happen… and when i get home from surgery if i am lucky enough.
I swear the man  never fails to amaze me.. by the many things he miss doing.. or pretend not to know or see.  And the time he spends on the computer and xbox gaming.
Today he even reminded me.. that it was i that wanted the relationship .. some 14 yrs ago.. and had emails to prove so.  Well.. maybe i was stupid..? or naive..?? or just plain STUPID..!! *sigh*.