The ImPerfect Perfectionist

Yes.. the man spends about 4hrs gaming last nite.  But what can i say right..?? afterall.. he worked the whole day.. and ran errands.. cooked.. and did housework.. but there were more to do around the house.  but what can i say right..??  oh well.. !  c’est la vie.. eh..??

My in laws seems to think that I should be well by now.  They seemed surprised.. when i tell them i am not at the store yet.. and still in alot of pain.  I guessed the difference between my c-section when i had my kid and now must be really different for them.  When i had my c-section .. i was up and about the very same day.  But now.. i am still in alot of pain after a month.  I can’t helped it.. either.. and i hate it.  But i can’t be well.. every other day.. and they keep asking.. and i’m frustrated.

The man happily said… that it was an idea.. for him to go to the city to get my chinese food.. with his buddy .. since no one seems to be going up.. and i’m still unable to travel because of my operation.  Although i know he was doing this outta good will..  i can’t believed he wants to drive up with his buddy.. and leave me and the kid all alone at home..!!  No freaking way.. man..!! I rather do without my chinese food than to share the man with his rolly polly tubbyfart.

My MIL .. kept telling the man.. that she needed to go home.. for the garden.. when she was staying at my place.. when i was in the hospital.  But yesterday.. she was in town the whole day instead of helping in the garden.. and going to play bingo.  What about the peas.. then..?? which she had kept saying it was important..??  *sigh*.. what does it tell you .??  I donch even wanna go there..!

I cooked for the brat .. even though .. i was in pain.. today.. because i didn’t really want her to eat frozen food. So the man just gotta come home and picked it up. He picked up the noodles.. but left the soup at home. Now how stupid can that be..?? but nope.. it’s not even stupidity.. it’s the “i don’t really care” attitude.. that drives me nuts..!! how can one eat plain udon without any soup..??? Surely, he saw the tupperware of soup.. and some fruits.. i prepared for the brat…??? nope.. obviously not..!! yet he got the cheek.. to come home.. looking upset..!!! it’s 3.19pm now.. the brat must be starving..!! but so what right..?? let the kid starve.. as long as the father is being stupid..!! sigh..!

It is funny how my FIL would asked if we were visiting them… since i am still recovering from my surgery.  I wonder why they won’t make an effort to come visit me instead.  Afterall, i am STILL SICK right..??  i won’t be able to be comfortable at their place… for their kitchen is cluttered.. and not very much seat available.  And since it is summer now.. the house is even going to be dirtier.. because of their gardening stuff.  Nah.. i can’t go visit now.

Since my operation.. i try not to do too much.. and take time to recover.. but at times.. it’s just hard.. because it almost seems like the man.. is waiting till thy kingdom to come.. to do stuff.. like cleaning the dishes.. or bathing the kid.

Yes.. it irks me big time.. at 10.30pm.. the dishes not done.. the kid not bathed.. how can i not get all upset. But i really try to keep my cool.. and donch let the small stuff sweat. It almost seems like the man.. thinks i am well enough to do stuff… when clearly i am not. And he should know i’m not the lazy type.. so why in the hell.. can’t he just do it.. and put the kid to bed early..?? Frustrated..!

That my MIL donch feel that she needs to give alot of help to me.. because i ain’t the daughter.. and just the daughter in law.  But isn’t the man the son..??  so if she makes things easier for me.. and i recover sooner.. wouldn’t it means.. better for her son..??

But still i guess .. her probably perspective.. is she already helped enough.. quite different from a mother and daughter..??  or with a good asian mom..??  of course i can’t depend on mine.. for she would never fly all the way to Canada.  She doesn’t even like taking the escalators..!!

Yes.. i was telling the man.. that i was missing the convenience.. of hawker centers.. food court.. and even the coffee shop around my neighbourhood from home.  And the convenience of transportation.. and the MRTs.. and even cabbies.  Everything has an order back home.. but not here. Over here.. i donch even know.. which taxis runs 24hrs.. and you know what.. after being here for 8 yrs.. there are still things i’m not really sure of.  Like how to apply my RRSPs .. and so forth.  Nope.. not really fun.. being in a foreign land.. with a man.. who is quite nonchalant about stuff.